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He picked his back up so I figured I would too.  I doubt he checks this page anymore.

I miss that boy…so much, even when he’s right beside me.  I’m such a shipwreck.

Two days into school…and the one thing that essentially kept me going was taken away from me and it makes me so sad.  I just….

Sadly, this little body is only going through the daily motions. I can fake it to the world, but to him, I simply cannot.  I love that boy, with all I am, and all I ever will be.  I don’t care what everyone says ‘it’s not good for you,’ ‘would you rather have something that’s temporary and would hurt you again when it’s over?’

The answer is yes.  Because love is patient.  Love is kind.  Above all else, love is there.  Love’s not temporary, I don’t care.  I don’t care what they say.  I have hope, I have love.  I’m setting myself up, but I still have love.  I have an unconditional love for that boy, that I would go through hell and back to prove it.

That boy, he makes me feel like I’m the most beautiful girl in the world.

And all I want, all I really want is to see him smile.

Even if it hurts me.

And I’d still love him.